Musings for a Modern World

Change is in the Air

2007-05-14T11:43:00.000-06:00

Well this is it the summer that everything changes. I am excited and scared at the same time...I want to make sure my life is going down the right path.
I am going to be spending more time with friends and hoepefully making new friends. Who knows what is in store for me this summer.
As I right this I feel this sense of relief, but the butterflies in my stomach are threatening to take over. We shall see. To all of my friends out there I will fill you in on details as they come to me.
Much love to everyone and watch out a new Laura is about to be born.

Been Awhile aka. Ring the King

2007-05-01T19:17:00.000-06:00

Well I know that I haven't posted on here for such a long time...but the creative juices are flowing again..so I am ready to start posting.
I just returned from a vaca in Indiana...it was awesome. It was so nice to see Gabe's family and friends. I esp. had fun with Steph (wow it had really been awhile!!!!)
The one thing that Gabe and I were really excited about was eating Pizza King. All my midwest friends, you know what I am talking about. The greatest pizza in the world. I am not joking...I swear. I haven't found a good pie out here in CO. So of course we had to go and eat a large royal feast w/bbq!! It was everything that I thought it could be and more.
Have you ever had intense memories when eating something?? Well that is what happened to me...it was like college all over again. I remembered how much fun I had when living in Indiana. I am telling you food can hold a lot of memories This is how much I love this pizza, we bought two larges on our way outta town to have for our drive back. Yeah, it's that bad!!
I did do other things in Muncie, besides eat Pizza. Steph and I went to Motinis and heard some good live music...we used to do this all the time in college. The music scene in Muncie really isn't that bad, or maybe it's just that I like the bars there better. I was also able to see my friends Daniel who I didn't even know was still in town...it was very nice to see him. Mostly it was just nice to relax and take it easy for a while. I will try not to let so much time go by before I visit again. Maybe the next time I am out there I will take more pictures.
Anyway this is what has been going on..I have been working a lot, and it was nice to get away. Gabe and I hardly take vacas together.
S0 hopefully I will be starting to post more..so check back more often.
Much love to all.

Travel Woes

2007-01-23T11:06:00.000-07:00

So as most of you know I am going to be heading to Japan this year. That's right I am going to stop talking about it and actually do it. The only thing is that I didn't realize who long it would take to get my passport. With the new passport law going into effect I am looking at about a 2 month wait possibly more. This super sux. Oh well, I guess that I won't be going in the spring.
ANyway, it that is the only woe I have about this trip than that is pretty damn good. On another I am glad to hear that my friend Les will be joining me. She has re-confirmed with me and I am going to hold her to it.
If anyone out there knows someone who is currently living in Japan let me know. I would love to get a good feel for the area from a resident.
Dewa Mata

I know, I know

2007-01-21T18:18:00.000-07:00

It has been quite some time since I last posted. I have been busy and haven't really had anything to post lately. Same as in the last post, there is snow (lots of snow).
I must say I am quite sick of snow.
I am ready for summer, hot weather, and pools.
But I guess I need to wait a little while for that all to happen.
I hope that everyone out there is having a great Sunday. I am currently watching the Colts get creamed by the Patriots....not a happy day at all. GO COLTS!!!!
Now that I have said that...there isn't much to say.
I have been trying to take it easy mostly which means that I haven't been doing much.
I am sure that I will have more to post as the creative juices start flowing a little more.

Autre foi.
Ma main.
Adieu.
Au Seigneur.
Bon Soir.
Dormez-vous.

Next time.
My hand.
Farewell.
To the Lord.
Goodnight.
Sleep you all.

Jack Kerouac "Pomes all Sizes"

So much snow!

2006-12-21T10:30:00.000-07:00

Oh my god...that is all I have to say. Winter is so not my fav season, but this is a little crazy. I know I haven't posted in a while. But I am just letting everyone out there know that I am still here and am very much alive.
I will leave you guys with a photo of my car buried in snow. I am going to out and make snow angels now. (Hey gotta make the best of the snow!)

Boy Did I need Coffee this Morning

2006-11-24T08:49:00.000-07:00

Not only do I feel like I ate enough for 5 people, but I am also way groggy. I don't have to work thank goodness, but boy did I need that coffee. I hope that everyone out there enjoyed their turkey day...I ate tons of food and watched football all day...it was truly awesome :) So it is the day after and I am sure that I am not the only one suffering from the "turkey hang-over"
So since I am still a little on the sleepy side and kinda outta it, I will close this post with a poem.

Poim

Walking on water
Nothing ever Happened
Not ever Happening
True story
Old story
New story
Old & New
HOLY BOLONEY
Holy Cow
Holy Cats
Wow
Whatever
To The Feast
Story Book
Book
Story Words
"Anyway it never happened"
Nothing Happened
Everybody Invited

-Jack Kerouac "Pomes all Sizes"

Posing a Question

2006-11-21T08:04:00.000-07:00

Who out there really feels it is about time that school buses have seatbelts??
The recent events in Alabama should really be sending a message. I have long thought that school buses are unsafe. When I have children I will be driving them to school myself. I know that this isn't possible for many families, but something needs to be done. Children are the future, we in this country should be taking every measure to insure their safety.
I am sorry, seeing those pictures of that school bus made me cry. I have never understood why in the hell there aren't seatbelts in buses. I want to know what everyone out there thinks.
Please leave your comment...perhaps if enough people raise their voices something will change. It is a small battle to fight, but it is still important.

Namaste

The Big Day

2006-11-18T09:42:00.000-07:00

Well here it is the big day! Who is it going to be? Michigan or Ohio State?? Heat tells me that Wyoming and Michigan are the only two states (in a recent poll) that thinks Michigan will win. Hmmmm those are some serious odds.
I know that I will be here watching the game. It is a toss up for who to cheer for. But I think that I am going to have to go with Michigan, although they beat my Cardinals a couple of weeks ago. All I know is someone is not going to be undefeated anymore. This truly going to be an exciting game!
Heat, Henrique and I will be watching this game and drinking some beer. College football has been exciting this year!! So we will see this afternoon who really is the stronger team.
Get ready...It's Go Time!

GO MICHIGAN!!!!!!!!

No Sleep for the Insomniac

2006-10-26T07:21:00.000-06:00

Well I had thought that the I had beatin this insomnia thing but it seems that I haven't. I am up can't sleep and it really sux. I guess it is good that I don't have to work today. Well...I am sitting down and enjoying my morning coffee and writing this post b/c I don't what else to do with the time right now.
I guess I am having a lot of things on my mind lately that might be causing this insomnia. If I could only pinpoint which one thought it is that is keeping me up at night. Oh well...there are worse things in this world.

Reading Jack Kerouac poetry in a coffee shop seems so right to me right now. I am going to get back into the beat authors. I just read "Franny and Zooey" by Salinger and have fallen in love with that book. It is going to be my new book that I read every month. Yes that is right folks it is replacing my beloved "Vurt". I will still read that book again (probably at least 50 more times). I highly recommend everyone out there read "Franny and Zooey." As you can see now the tiredness is affecting my train of thought. I am having a hard time staying on one topic right now. I will leave all of you with a poem right now.

Replied the good buddy:
"So now the bird's asleep
And that air plane gone
Let's all listen deep.

Everybody silent
Includin me
To catch the roar
Of eternity

That's ringin in our ears
Never-endingly.
You hear it Tom, Dick
And Harry Lee?

You hear it Slim
From Old Montan'?
You hear it Big Daddy
And Raggedy Dan?

You know what I mean
When I say eternity?
You heard it in your crib-
Shhh-Infinity."

-Jack Kerouac

Namaste

Thoughts

2006-10-25T17:24:00.000-06:00

tsuyu to kie
maboroshi to kie
inazuma no
kage no gotoku ni
mi wa omou beshi

Like dew that vanishes,
like a phantom that disappears,
or the light cast
by a flash of lightining-
so should one think of one's self.

-Ikkyu Sojun (1394-1481)

Martinis, Heat, and Me

2006-10-20T21:50:00.000-06:00

So it's Friday nite and I had the weirdist I have ever had. So that being said, I have decided that it is time for some martinis.
I text Heat and she is down...so we head on over to the Magnus and have a couple of martinis. We then decide that it is a nite to hang at home and drink martinis together. We stop by the Mardi Gras and pick up some Mango Martini mix.
YUMMY!!!!!!!
We that being said...I am having a much better evening. Tomorrow we will be watching the CSU Wyo game and CSU is going to win.
Well at least I think they will....anyway that is my evening in a nutshell.
Martinis make me feel better and hanging with Heat is always fun.

Namaste

First Snow of the Year

2006-10-17T13:39:00.000-06:00

So I am right now looking out my window at the snow falling. True it is just a wet snow but I am sure that it will start collecting soon.
As a fan of warm weather and sunny skies; the first snow gives me mixed feelings.
While it is beautiful...it is also to fricking cold.
That about sums it up for me.
The one thing I am glad about this year is that I don't have to drive in it to get to work...talk about a great relief.

kumo naki tsuki no
akatsuki no sora; sayo makura
shigure mo kaze mo
yume samete

Not a cloud around the moon
in the sky at break of day.
Over my pillow,
it was rain showers and wind
that ended my dream.

-Monk Sogi (1421-1502)

W Posted Here!

2006-10-13T16:45:00.000-06:00

Thats right you heard it hear the President posted on my humble little blog. I didn't think this would ever happen...I don't know what to say. Except for WTF!
Anyway....as it would seem I have got the attention of some high-ups. I mean my blogs are so interesting to read (esp when I talk about the football games I watched.)
GO UVA!!!!!
Anyway I will let you read the post below and you can decide for yourself..is it really the president or someone posing as the president.
Hmmmmm.....well anyway it is quite amusing and I got a good laugh out of it.
I mean really...these are things he might say.

W said...

I was patrolling the Internets looking for terrorists and I found your site. Let me say a couple things:

First of all... there's a saying... it goes... well... um... it's hard work being the president.

I'm fully aware that stuff ain't going well in the world... like I said, it's hard work. It's my job to protect the American people. Ya' hear that? My job. I was hired by an overwhelming 50.1% of the voting public. That's not a majority, that's a mandate.

Sometimes the so-called "Bill'a Rights" makes protecting the good folk of America difficult. People want to give terrorists a trial where we tell them why we've kept 'em imprisoned for years on end and they want to see evidence! That makes less sense than a bull wearing a skirt during a Texas windstorm. Say this feller' ended up at Gitmo because his neighbor tipped us off. Maybe he's an terrorist or maybe his friend just wants his wife... but that's not important... what is important is that we protect our sources. Using evidence would just embolden our enemies. Understand?

People are also telling me... the Decider... that I can't listen to their phone conversations without Warrant. Warrant? I hate that gall'darn band! How can I hear the secret messages encoded in steamy phone sex when I have "Cherry Pie" blaring in my ears. Think people!

After reading your blog, I realize that the First Amendment might be a little overboard too. "Free" speech? Sounds Commie to me. From now on I'm going to let the Market decide the value of speech. Get ready to pay.

So there it is in all its glory ;)
Cory you are brilliant that is all I have to say.

Namaste

FYI: I am a pacifist so anyone out there who wants to say otherwise must not have the grace of the Almighty Buddha on their side.

Is there Anyone out there?

2006-10-09T16:47:00.000-06:00

I have decided that I must write really boring posts. No one hardly comments anymore. Serioulsy I have tried to be non-offensive, but I am tempted now to just offend someone just so there is some posting action out there.
I am not a deep philosophical person or I would try writing something like that. If you give me an hour and a couple of beers I could be.
True this did start as an online journal...just sometimes you want peoples feedback. Like for instance are there no UVA fans out there??? I mean come on...rally behind me UVA rocks ( even though they lost their last game).
Or how about this...Bush is not a very good president! I just know someone wants to respond to that one.
This is the only time that I will probably ever mention anything political...if you know me, you know my views.
I know that I have very busy friends out there...I totally understand that. But come on...let me know that you guys are out there. Some of you I don't see very often and the only way I know that you are still with the living is if you email me or post on my blog.
Ok so this is turning into one of my famous rambling rants...I am sorry I have just been feeling a little down lately and seriously...I just wanted to know that I still have peeps out there.
Now I don't want some mean spirited post about me being a loser...b/c frankly I know that I am not.
Ever have those days where you feel invisible well that is me today...that would be why I am posting like this.
I am sure that I will go back to my boring posts about what I did this weekend...or my trip this next summer...but just humour me now.
You know maybe it has something to do with the crappy-ass weather today. I have always felt that the weather affects my moods.
Well whether it is the weather outside or just one of those super special days...I am really a little better after posting.

"For I
Prophesy
That the night
Will be bright
With the gold
of Old
In the inn
Within."

Jean-Louis "Pomes all Sizes"

Nonstop Rollercoaster Ride

2006-10-08T08:58:00.000-06:00

I have been having a hectic week...the weather has been acting funny and the mornings have been super busy...it was insane last week. Amid all the insanity I was promoted to manager. It was a surprise let me tell you, I was very happy. Then I was thrown right in...I guess that works. SINK OR SWIM!
So that is why I have been away for about a week...this past week was the most hectic I have had since last X-mas.
Speaking of the holidays...everyone who knows and loves Gabe must be extra nice to him this holiday season. He will be working at a bookstore for the holidays (I wish I could say that I pity him, but I don't ;)
So you see him closer to X-mas and he seems grumpy...trust me it's not you.
Anyway..this has been a rather short weekend, I was nice enough to pick up an extra shift today (kinda wish that I hadn't) oh well.
I am hoping that my shift goes by quickly, but the rest of my day goes a little slower.
Hopefully once I settle into my new position it will stop being so hectic. That would be nice...stress and me don't get a long.
Well we shall see how this week coming up goes...I am wishing for the best and also hope that I have my two days off this week.
Since I don't have much more to say...I will leave it at this.
I miss all my friends dearly and want to spend time with each and every one of you.
Steph I am trying to get out for your b-day...I will let you know in the next week if I am going to be able to.

Namaste

Hooray!!!

2006-10-01T13:50:00.000-06:00

I must say that I am quite excited by the fact the Cavaliers finally pull off a sweet win. True it was against Duke and they aren't really known for their football team, but it still makes me happy. I would have loved to watch this game but I wasn't able to find it on t.v. So instead I watched the Purdue Norte Dame game. This was a great game...well it was entertaining. The best was when it started to downpour...I just love watching and playing sports in the rain.
Anyway needless to say the Boilermakers couldn't pull it off...oh well maybe next time guys!
It has been just a great weekend...I was able to watch some football at the bar while Gabe argued with the gentlemen next to him about socialism...that was a very interesting lunch ;)
I had a lovely evening out with Miss Heat...we went to Carinos and stuffed our faces...it was great ;)
YUMMY Peach Bellinis.
Anyway that is all I have to report....hope everyone had a great weekend.
Love to everyone.

Namaste

WAY TO GO CAVALIERS!!!!!!!!

Happy Birthday Les!!!!

2006-09-28T16:01:00.000-06:00

This is in dedication to my best homie...Les!
I know that you feel that 25 is getting up there but it isn't, trust me.
You are only as old as you feel and sure as hell don't look 25.
You can still party with the best of them and show shame upon younger ones.
So I raise my glass to you and say CHEERS LADY!!!!!
Much love to you and to the many birthdays we will be celebrating in the years to come.

The weekend is almost here!

2006-09-22T11:58:00.000-06:00

So today was my early day off of work. YEAH! I have the entire weekend off...this is going to be a great weekend.
Gabe will be celebrating his birthday tomorrow, he will be the ripe ole age of 29!
So everyone help me celebrate his special day.
If I wasn't so broke we would be doing something really cool...but that will have to wait until I get paid next Thursday :)
He is fine with that...unlike me he doesn't really get into celebrating his day.
Other than that it has been a long week...thank goodness it is over. The weather here is changing (which means that it is getting colder), but that's ok...its good movie watching weather. So I want to wish everyone out there a great weekend. And seriously wish Gabe a Happy Birthday too.
Love to all my friends

The waters see
The waters saw
So this is eternity

-Jack Kerouac "Pomes all Sizes"

Changes are coming

2006-09-16T19:09:00.000-06:00

So I am doing this new blogger beta thing, this means that my page is going to look a little different for a bit. All of my old links are gone and I need to add all of these back in. Sux big time...but I guess it gives me something to do.
Please be patient with me as I experiment and work to make my page fab looking. I have lost my links and this will take a little time for me to recover them. I promise that everything will back to normal soon.

Namaste

Saturday Football

2006-09-16T15:09:00.000-06:00

Well last nite was a blast...I love going out with a good friend. Alas there were no pictures taken...damn it I even had my camera with me!
All I can say is, Jay's had a great dirty martini!!!
So today we wake up and Heat's hubby comes to get us and we go eat a whole lotta wings. Yummy yummy: wings and football.
This is where the football comes in...I decided that I needed to watch some football when I came home after stuffing myself.
I don't usually watch it, but I was really into it today for some reason. I am watching Notre Dame get their ass handed to them by Michigan. Man I just hope maybe they can redeem themselves somehow right now.
I have also been sporting my UVA hat today since they were playing. I used to wear this hat to BSU football games with my marching uniform, people would give me so much grief for it.
Who cares anyway!!!! Alright so this has turned into a slightly stupid and pointless post, but I needed to do something to distract me from the disasterous game that I have been watching.
I hope that everyone is enjoying their saturday and watching their teams play. From a newbie to the football watching arena (I think that I am really starting to like it).
GO UVA BEAT WESTERN MICHIGAN!!!!!!!!!!!

Fort Collins Fun!

2006-09-15T15:19:00.000-06:00

So I must say that I am very excited about this evening. I am going to pick up my friend Heat and we are going to go live the night life here in Ft. Fun!
I am excited mostly about the fact that I get to take her to all of these fabulous places and have a great time. Old Town can be very fun on a Friday nite, it can also be very crowded. So we are going to try to get an early start so that we can at least get a parking spot.
This is a monumental event...Heat and I in Ft. Collins on a Friday nite. We have been making G-Town our Friday nite stomping grounds for a while now. Now we come to my town and have a blast.
I know this sounds silly and trivial to most out there....but I am EXCITED!!!!!!!!
I will hopefully be taking pictures...I know I say this a lot and never do. I'm sorry I just never remember for some reason.
I was hoping that it could be a ladies nite with the infamous 3, but miss Les has to work tonight :(
Boooooo...well you know that I will have a martini for you. See if Les lived up here it would be a hell of lot easier...but that's cool. You know I love you!!!!
Anyway back to the evening at hand. See this is a rare thing for me now...I don't usually have Saturdays off anymore so can't usually go out on Fridays. Oh yeah I have the next two Saturdays off...you know I will be going out.
So I might see some of my friends out and about tonight.
Let us all have a fun and safe Friday nite!!!

Namaste

"Enlightment is: do what
you want
eat what there is"

Jack Kerouac-"Pomes All Sizes"

Delicate Rain Falling

2006-09-09T15:55:00.000-06:00

You would think that I am on vacation again. I have just found the joy in posting again. I love just letting the thoughts tumble out of my brain. Whether people enjoy reading them or not makes no never mind to me.
I am just enjoying a nice afternoon after work...the rain has fallen and the clouds are parting. Such a good day to be out there and alive.
This such day makes me think of a poem that I just read:

hahaso hara
shizuku mo iro ya
kawaruramu
mori no shitakusa
aki fukenikeri

Among the great oaks,
even the dewdrops from the leaves
must have changed colors-
for the grasses beneath the trees
show autumn's progress too.

-Lady Kunaikyo (d.1204?)

The changing weather and light crisp air remind me that fall is not that far away. I am enjoying this change in weather and have felt a renewed purpose in life.

Namaste

It's Five O'Clock Somewhere aka Martini Time

2006-09-08T15:30:00.000-06:00

So I was just thinking...whatever happened to Martini Hour? I mean in the 50's this was a big deal...why have we gotten away from it.
People now just go and have as many beers as they can get until the bar closes. Let us get back to the civilized way of drinking.
I don't know what brought this on..perhaps it is the fact that I realized that I enjoy a martini more than a beer (sometimes).
Now to some people out there who have told me before that my life is sad b/c I enjoy a drink or two...screw you!!!
Now that I have that out on the table. I want all of my friends out there to raise their martini glasses high and enjoy. There is nothing wrong with having a martini after work (or for some people more) they used to do it all the time in the 50's.
Vive la Martini!
BTW I did just make myself a fab martini...here is to enjoying life. Be it a Cosmo or a Dirty Martini (my personal fav) enjoy it and trust me you will save money at the bar...you won't need as many of these if your intention is to get drunk..trust me.
Go out with friends..enjoy the weekend..live fab..love to everyone.

It's Almost Over

2006-08-28T15:20:00.000-06:00

My fab vaca is coming to a close...one last afternoon of laying out. Tomorrow I will be heading back to Colorado. I am now wishing that I had given myself an extra day off to recoup...I always forget to do that. Oh well..it won't be that bad, if I am tired I will just make myself some coffee ;) I guess you can't be on vacation forever (although that would be nice!!)
It will be nice to get home though, I have missed Gabe and my friends. I think that there are many things that I will miss about this vacation. This has been the best vacation that I have had in a long time. For example I found a new form of "crack" it is called the History Channel...man I could watch this channel for hours. I might have to break down and get some form of cable just so that I can watch this channel at home. Anway I know that seems really weird, so I will leave it at that.
Well to all my friends I will be seeing you soon. Have missed everyone dearly and can't wait to party with my closest buds.
Peace to everyone out there...love you all.

Namaste

Fun in the Sun

2006-08-26T09:58:00.000-06:00

This has been the best vacation I have had in a long time. I am going to come back to Colorado totally relaxed and with a new outlook on life.
I am loving it out here...the sun, the sun, and oh yeah the sun!
I just like how everything out here in Arizona is a little bit more laid back. Yeah the traffic sux, but doesn't it in every major city.
I have just been taking it easy and tanning and doing a little shopping. I do miss my friends though....I wish that we could all come down here and take a vaca together. Wouldn't that be fun??!! Well I haven't got a whole lot to say. I will be here until Tuesday, so I will see everyone again either Tuesday or Wednesday.
Love you all.

Namaste

Summer showers

2006-08-22T12:30:00.000-06:00

So I arrived in Phoenix yesterday afternoon and man was it hot! It was nice though, I have always liked the weather in Arizona.
But what I didn't realize is that I am here during monsoon season. It was really weird b/c last night we had a really nasty storm. It was super windy and lots of lightening.
We just don't get that in Colorado. It was nice though...the smell of rain has been a fav on mine. Sleeping with the windows open and feeling the nice evening breeze. What a great start to my vacation.
I took some pics of my own as the storm moved across the sky...but since I forgot my cord for my camera they will have to wait until I get home.
It is a little cloudy today and a bit humid, but nothing as close to the humidity in the midwest (thank god!)
I am just talking it easy today and reading and relaxing..I am sure that I will take in some sun as well today ;) I am hoping to enjoy some hiking sometime this week...but we shall see. I miss all of my friends dearly and hope to bring them out here sometime to enjoy this wonderful area. To everyone out there have a great week.

Namaste

Vaca is fast approaching

2006-08-19T12:16:00.000-06:00

I am starting to get excited about my pending vacation. I am not excited about flying but that is such a small part of it. I will spending a little over a week in Arizona. I am going to visit my grandparent, who btw are the coolest people.
I will not be thinking about much of anything, just relaxing and enjoying the nice warm weather.
I have been counting down the days until I leave. This week has been long and I have been training new people all week. I am about ready to drop from exhaustion. Don't get me wrong I love my job I am just tired.
I think the first day that I am there I will just sleep.
I will miss my friends but they know that I have been needing this one for a while.
If you out there haven't been to Arizona do go. It is a great place to be, I have bee wanting to move there for some time now. I just can't convince Gabe that he would like it. Oh well......

damn you reality tv

2006-08-17T21:13:00.000-06:00

So i got together with my ladies last night and we were watching a movie from our list. Let me give you a little background about this we have been working on AFI's 100 Most Passionate Films for about 4 years now, and damnit we are going to finish. Anyway so we watching our movie and then we are all hanging out.
There is this show that was about to come on called project runway. Seeing as I don't have cable I have never had the pleasure of watching this show.
Now let me tell you I am a very anti-reality show person, so was a little skeptical about this one.
I have to say I was surprised and very pissed at myself. I didn't ever want to like one of these shows...I have fought it for so long.
Well what's done is done and now I want to watch it again...but on the upside it makes me want to get out my sewing machine and start sewing again. That's a good thing right??
Well I won't hold it against my friends for introducing me to this show. It won't make me want to get cable but now I have another reason to hang out with my ladies.
Anyway that is what is going on in the exiting world of me.
I will be on vacation next week...thank goodness!!!!!
Sunny Arizona here I come..hopefully I will have some great pics to put up.
Ta ta for now

Namaste

Absence makes the heart grow fonder

2006-08-14T17:28:00.000-06:00

So I have missed all of you very much. I have been busy with training newbies at my job. Oh yes that is right I am training people...who would have guessed it. Other than that I have been geeking out over my lastest fav film. Ok all of those who love me forgive this is my inner geek speaking. So if you must know I spent more time playing this game my soph year than studying for class. That is how deep the love goes. I know there are a few of you out there that know what I am talking about. Anyway...I just have a respect for kick ass cg and here it is in all its glory.
Now this isn't all I have been doing..my god I do have a life.
Recently Heat and I went and celebrated Jilly's last day at Scoots..it was sad but it had to happen.
I had fun and was very glad that I had the next day off. I don't know where I am going to go when I come into Greeley (besides the Rio) I am sure that we will figure it out.
For those of you who don't know my long time love (my laptop) decided that it was tired of being used and abused and died on me. Cory is trying to save what was on my hardrive but we will see. It was a great computer and I used the hell outta of it. Now I have a new one which is even better. So we will see how long it takes before I kill this one. Anyone what to place a bet????

Anyway this is my update...hope to see most of you soon.
Esp you Steph..man if I don't get to hang with you soon I don't know what I am going to do...please come hang out in the mtns with me.
Much love to my crew (you know who you are).

I leave you all with a poem
Namaste

ari totemo
tanomu beki ka wa
yo no naka o
shirasuru mono wa
asagao no hana

For now, I am here,
but can one trust the future?
No, not in a world
that teaches us its ways
with the morning glory

-Izumi Shikibu (970-1030)

MySpace Woes

2006-07-28T11:03:00.000-06:00

So I have just discovered that myspace is having some serious issues. I was first informed of this by Steph who asked me to check if here page was still there. Well it wasn't, it said that it had been deleted. Hmmmmm.....very strange.
Well while I was on I went to post a blog and then it told me that my page has been deleted.
Now I understand that they are having a huge increase in usage, but they really need to keep up with the flow of people logging on. I really hope that it is just a glitch and that my page hasn't been deleted. I spent a good amount of time working on it and there were some people that I was only able to contact through myspace.
Well let me tell you this...if my page is gone then I will probably not be going back to myspace.
I loved all the people I met through there and all of the old friends that I was able to get back into contact with.
So now that I have written this, I went back and my page was under maintanace. Well it turns out they are doing work on all the pages and that I need to install Flash 9. Now wouldn't you think something as large as myspace would warn their users that they were going to be doing all of this work.

It is really frustrating to be told my page is gone when it really isn't. Ok now that I have said my piece.
I hope that everyone of you who was using myspace was able to get back on.
I am done with my rant...love each and every one of you.

When Life Happens

2006-07-26T09:53:00.000-06:00

My posts seem to not be coming as regularly as they used to. I guess I just don't have a lot to say. Or maybe I do and I don't write it down. Whatever the reason it just happens.
As the title suggests; "Life Happens" Right now Gabe and I are convinced that someone is having fun dealing us bad hands. I don't usually like to complain about this kind of stuff on my blog, but I need to get some venting done.
I am to the point now, that if something else goes wrong I am going to seriously break down.
I still have a job which is good....it just seems that everything else around me is going to the dogs.
Maybe it is time to change locales...or I should just go to Japan now. Hmmm...that actually sounds like a good idea.
Well now that I have vented a little I feel better. (well at least a little)
I have been trying to keep good thoughts but sometimes it isn't all that easy.
So to my friends out there if I do seem a little down, no worries.
I love all of you and hope that this will soon pass.

Namaste

Dude Listen Here

2006-07-16T13:00:00.000-06:00

So I am at a local deli getting on the net b/c I can't get on at home anymore. That's crap!
Anyway that is where I have been lately. I know I know I could be getting on at work but I am important now. Or at least that is what I would like to think. I am now a trainer at my job. You see I take espresso drinks very seriously. It is a little weird though, I am the newest person there and I am training people who have been there for like a year or two.
Everyone is cool about it though. Works for me. I love it...makes me feel like I am doing something right.
Sometimes it just takes something as small as being told I make a good drink to make me feel better.
I don't want to toot my own horn, but if you know what I have been doing for the past 5 years then you know that I didn't exactly get encouragement at my old job.
So enough of that...I just wanted to let people who I haven't talked to in a while know what has been going on.

On another note...I would like to mention that it has been fricking hot here in Colorado. I mean I used to this in Arizona but here....no thank you.
I seriously feel like I am melting when I step outside. The ac has been running for 5 days now, and if you know Gabe and I were are a little anit ac. It just costs way too much money. But I can't let my cats lay on the floor like they are dead b/c it is so hot in the house. That is just cruel.
Speaking of them...I don't know Cory my cats have a way of causing trouble from long distances so Beethoven could have run out in front of your car. She is tricky like that. Too smart for her own good.

Well before this turns into a rambler I let everyone go. Please enjoy the rest of your day.

Namaste

Independence!!!

2006-07-04T06:26:00.000-06:00

Here I am at work this morning serving coffee to the one person who has come in. I didn't think that it would be busy this morning but this is a little ridiculous.
Oh well...bbqing and fireworks are imminent. Well as long as it doesn't rain here, which is what it is supposed to do.
In life a little rain must fall.
As the day has progressed so has the traffic in the little coffee shop I work in. Some people come in with a smile on their face, and some people look like they want to rip my head off.
I have to admit I was trying my hardest to be friendly, however.....it is a holiday and I don't appreciate being treated like garbage.
Now that that is over and I am at home...things are looking up. Grilling will be happening soon (I hope) It all depends on when Gabe gets up and then goes to the store. I have been waiting for this day simply b/c it is a great excuse to cook out. Not that I ever needed one in college. My old roomate and I used to cookout on a regular basis (as long as the sun was shining, and even sometimes when it wasn't).
Miss those days.
So today as I spark up the grill...I remember the days on North Street in college. For those of you who knew me in college you know what I mean.
Here's to all my friends old and new (and ones I haven't spoken to in years).

HAPPY 4TH!!!!!

Beer: The Great American Pastime

2006-06-30T13:22:00.000-06:00

As we are about to embark on a national holiday, I start to see the police patrol the roads a little more intensly.
Does this seem sad to anyone else...that a holiday means that there will be more drunk people on the road. That you are really taking your life into your own hands when driving at nite this weekend??
Now don't get me wrong...I will be partaking of some beer this weekend. But I just want to encourage everyone out there that either you need to limit the amount you drink, or you need to stay put after the all day bbq aka beer fest has ended.
Friends let drunk friends stay at their house. Be it the floor, a couch, or in some circumstances an actual bed. Please make sure your friends are safe from harming themselves and others.

I really don't want to seem like a major downer...I just feel that more and more people are testing the limits when drunk.
Driving a car while intoxicated is not only dangerous but not easy.
This is a weekend for people to celebrate the independence of this nation, not seeing how drunk we can get.
SO please party hard and have fun but be safe.

On another note...I would like to comment on the Great American Beer Fest!!! I will be there (with bells on) I would love to partake in various different beers and have a great time. I will be taking a DD with me (I am the smart one...I know better than to think that I would be able to drive home after this major event)

These were just some of my wandering thoughts at work. I am sorry if you think my post is strange and somewhat oxymoronic. I like to have fun with my friends but will not take my life and someone elses in my hands and drive drunk. That is all that this post is implying.

Love to all my friends and have a safe weekend

Slow on the Weekends

2006-06-24T11:14:00.000-06:00

I am sitting here at work watching the time slowly click by.
I wonder where all the people are and then I look outside and see the sunshine and the cloudless sky and wonder no longer.
Soon I will be able to join all the rest of town in celebrating the wonderful day.
I can't wait to go on my run after work. Hopefully the temperature stays moderate or it is going to be a fun run.
I shall see if I can get Gabe to join me this afternoon. I don't want to run on the treadmill I want to be out and about.
I thought about going to the brewfest that is downtown this weekend, but I think that a lot of people will be there.
As fun as it would be...there will be too many drunk people hanging around and making it hard for everyone else to have a good time.
Sound like a downer huh? Well I have just started to realize the older I get that being completely unaware of what you are doing or saying is not always the way to have fun.
Call my crazy!!!!
I hope that everyone is out there enjoying the day and doing some fun.
I will be soon...in only 3 hours I will be off work and dancing in the sun.

Pressure Cooker

2006-06-22T19:49:00.000-06:00

I am starting to freak about this major trip that I am going to take next summer.
I am not like ohmigod I don't wanna do this, more like a WOW I am going to do this.
This will be my first long journey into the unknown. I have to say I am way excited about this. I know that this is going to be something that I continue to do, this is just a starting point.
Now that I have gotten a little bit of that out.
I have been starting to check out websites and looking into what kind of pack I would like to use. I am basically going to be carrying a week and a halfs worth of clothes around for about a month and a half. Seems a little daunting but the adernaline is starting to kick in.
I am starting an exercise program so that I can get into shape for this adventure.
So if I start calling people out of the blue, it is b/c I am getting nervous about all of this.
My mantra is: "This is my dream and I can do it!!"
I need to be saying that to myself for the next year and get geared up for it. I know that I am getting going early, but this is something I need to have a little planning done for. On another note...I would like to give a shout out to my friend Heat who got married this past weekend. Once I find the cord to my camera I will have pictures up here on my blog. I got some really great pics and it was a lovely ceremony and a super fab party. I hope that everyone has as much fun when I get married.
She was a lovely bride...I knew she would be.
So CONGRATS to you and Henrique...Love you both!!!!!

So as I close this out..I everyone to know that they are important to me and are a big part of my life.

For I
Prophesy
That the night
Will be bright
With the gold
Of old
In the inn
Within

-Jack Kerouac "Pomes all Sizes"

Why Do I Keep Goin MIA????

2006-06-13T10:52:00.000-06:00

Well to my friends out there, I am sorry that I have been gone so long. About a month now. There just aren't enough hours in the day...seriously. I feel like I have been a busy little bee. I have been working two jobs and I haven't had a day off in over a week. Yes I like to abuse myself by pushing myself to the limits...it is a bad habit I know but hey...I like money ;)
I am hoping to actually enjoy some of my summer...maybe....well we shall see. I will enjoy this weekend..my good friend Heat is getting married. Yes that is right she is joining an exclusive club (I kid cause I love.) I am the last holdout among most of friends...with a coulple of exceptions (you people know who you are)
I am happy for her and am very excited to be able to share in her very special day.
LOVE YOU LOTS HEAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok now that I have said my kudos there is one more thing to say before I close...I miss you Steph and you should come see me this fall. We could take Mark to really tap the Rockies.
Much love to my Muncie Crew.

Namaste.

BTW It is really freakin hot here...what's that all about?????

Beautiful Sunshine

2006-05-13T19:32:00.000-06:00

I know that I have been away and haven't been posting very often.
I have to say a lot of it is b/c I don't really know what to post about sometimes so I just don't.
Well...this maybe another one of those posts..which will surely end in a poem from my fav. But I can give everyone a little update about what's what.
I am no longer a commuter, which will take a lot of stress off my shoulders. Commuting is horrible and I really started to hate it this last year. It was time to say good-bye to working in Greeley. Not that I won't see my friends every once in a while. I mean I love the people I worked with, but we won't get into anything else about it.
I was able to hang out last night with Heat and Les. We had a blast, we went to go hear a live band (which I hadn't done in a long time). I must say it was a successful Ladies Night Out.
It is really all small news from here. The day today was absolutely lovely. Reminded me of why I love living here so much.
Steph you have no idea...I will show you everything if you are able to come out this fall....you won't want to go back to Indiana (hehehehehe)

Anyhow....so I am now finishing this post days later, it is May 25th to be exact.
I have not had the best internet connection lately...so that is going to be my excuse for not posting.
Look for more in the next couple days.

To all my friends....much love.

Who's That Over There?

2006-05-02T13:10:00.000-06:00

Oh my gosh I can't believe that it has been that long since I last posted. My goodness where does the time go? Oh yeah sleeping and working...curious how that happens.
Well I am taking a break right now, to post a little something and I am quite excited about having some time to myself.
Gabe just got back from Indiana, which was really nice.
I was a little lonely w/o him here. I know that sounds so girly, but hey I am a girl.
I hope that everyone out there is having a good week so far. Mine is a little less stressful then past ones have been. I just need a vacation, maybe somewhere like Tahiti would be nice right now. Sandy beaches, pina coladas, and sun-bathing. Sounds like the perfect vaca to me.
My week has been progressing nicely. We shall see if it keeps looking up.
I am ready for the dreary days to end...rain and cloudy skies are no fun.

Working to Much=Sleep Deprivation

2006-04-18T17:31:00.000-06:00

So I am not ignoring anyone who has called or emailed me recently. I have been more busy than I think I ever have.
I am working all the time now...I mean I am working to very full days tomorrow and Thursday.
So this is an advance apology to all my friends. Oh and this is also I little FYI for the idiot that thinks my life is sad.
Piss off is all I have to say.

Anyway...I hope that everyone out there had a happy Easter. I had to work (of course) and deal with the rude people who are always out on any holiday.
I don't really have a whole lot to say...I just wanted my friends out in the great wide world to know that I am not purposely not talking to them. Sleep is my best friend right now.

Cheers to everyone out there and hopefully I will be back to normal work hours in a week or so.

Steph I miss you and am insanely jealous that Gabe gets to see you and I don't. What the heck!!!!!

Wish I saw Cherry Blossoms

2006-04-10T10:10:00.000-06:00

With the coming of spring, my melancholy lifts.
I am not a cold weather girl, I can almost feel the song of my soul lamenting.
I have always enjoyed the first warm days of the year.
They make me feel so alive and joyous.
Today is such a day and what makes if even better is being able to enjoy it by being outside.
I am not right now, but I will be right after this post.
Here is a poem that I read this morning that struck a chord with me.

omokage ni
hana no sugata o
sakidatete
ikue koekinu
mine no shirakumo

How many times now
have I crossed over the hill crests
with the image
of blossoms leading me on-
toward nothing but white clouds?

-Fujiwara no Shunzei (1114-1204)

Thank You CrapHeads

2006-04-06T18:09:00.000-06:00

So I have been thinking about it, and Gabe is right.
I am not going to give you people what you want. If you do end up posting something negative I will be deleting it, esp. if you don't tag your name on.
I don't want someone bringing my day down b/c that is how they feel better about themselves.
So please in the future at least put a name on your insult on my life or don't post at all. It isn't fair that you can insult me behind the wall of anonymity.
As my mother said (who yes she read your comments) "if you are going to comment at least have the guts to put your name to it. anyone can hide, it takes a real person to own up to their thoughts and opinions."
That being said; I am going to end this post with a poem by my fav.
Please enjoy...and remember there are worse things in this world.

POIM

Walking on Water
Nothing Ever Happened
Not Ever Happening
True Story
Old Story
New Story
Old & New
HOLY BOLONEY
Holy Cow
Holy Cats
Wow
Whatever
To The Feast
Story Book
Book
Story Words
"Anyway, It Happened"
Nothing Happening
Everybody Invited

Jack Kerouac "Pomes All Sizes"

Gonna be a nice lazy day

2006-03-27T08:14:00.000-07:00

So I know that I haven't been posting lately. You would not want me to have posted any of the thoughts that were running through my head the past week. Not nice stuff.
But now that I have found a little inner peace I can enjoy my day off.
I am going to be lazy today, well this is my version of lazy.
I think I am going to spend the day walking around ole town with Les and just hang out.
Nothing major nor taxing to my brain.
I have needed a day like today...it is sunny and mild out not freezing and snowing like last Monday. It is about time that Spring actually showed up...I don't want anymore surprise deep freezes. I just love walking around in downtown. There are so many cool shops and resturants, it is just a lot of fun.
So I am going to leave everyone with a wish for a great day. I love all of my friends and wish that some of them were closer.

"When you become enlightened
you will know that you've
been elightened all along."

-Jack Kerouac "Pomes All Sizes"

Low Carb, yet it's Half n Half?!

2006-03-09T18:44:00.000-07:00

Ok so I need to understand this. I had a lady come in the other day and she was all pissed off b/c we didn't have low-carb chai.
Ok..sorry, we can't please everyone. So she tells first off that she is pissed b/c we aren't meeting her dietary needs. (Ok and what about mine, and the person next to you, and the one that'll be after that.) I mean come on YOU are not a VIP.
Anyway, so she tells me that she is going to get a breve latte w/SF vanilla. Ok I guess that makes sense...you wanna do low-carb but you don't care how much fat is in the drink. That makes sense to me, how bout you????

FYI: A Breve is a drink made with half n half.

Does anyone else think that this low-carb diet fad is bad for your health?? I mean yes carbs can be the enemy, but I don't think that it is a "diet" when you are increasing your calorie intake. That seems a little counter-productive to me.
I know this is a strange subject to talk about, but seriously. I am just bothered by these women who bitch about how we don't cater to their diet needs. It's a coffee shop for goodness sake. These are the same women who last month would be getting skim in their latte, but now since they are on this low-carb diet they are getting half n half b/c it has less carbs. Don't just look at the carbs people, look at the calories!!!! If anyone out there can explain this low-carb thing to me, then please do.
Sorry that is my rant...I am sure that you all have noticed that I have these rants occasionally, but they are for valid things.

On another subject...Gabe and I are hoping to descend on the poor people of Muncie in April. That's right, you better watch out. I am coming with my drinking boots on, so Steph you have been warned (I have been drinking at a very high elevation for several years now, that means I am going to drink you under the table!) Now I won't spend all my time drinking, just most of it. It is going to be an event so you better believe that pics will be taken. I have gotten quite fond of taking random pics so watch out!!!
So now that I am rambling...it is time to go.
Peace to all my friends

tHE Birthday Recap

2006-03-07T08:05:00.000-07:00

So finally it is here...I have gotten pics on my computer and I am ready for everyone to see them.
So the evening started off with dinner at Carinos. Heather, Megan, and I with Cory joining later.
Now I picked this place, b/c I hadn't eaten there in a long time and also b/c they have fantastic Bellini's. I wouldn't tell the waiter how old I was b/c he wouldn't have beleived me anyway. So we eat, I get to drinking, it is fun.
Next stop is Pitchers..this is where the majority of the pics were taken and where most of my friends started showing up.
I remember having beer, but don't recall how many shots I may have taken........
I know it was a couple, we hung out there for a while.
When Heat and I went out for a ciggy this freakin weird guy was trying to talk to us. He told us he was on Meth (which made me want to run) and then told us how he was using this credit card he found on the street. Let's just say we didn't stay out there that long.
So after Pitchers, we went to Scooters! Now if you have read a couple of my past posts you know my love/hate relationship with this bar. I am the one who wanted to go there, so let's keep that straight.
I have to say the best of the evening was a guy coming up to me and telling all of my friends that they should be paying a $1000 to hang out with me b/c I was so beautiful. I have to give him props for such an original line. Made me laugh, but this is the kind of element you come to expect at Scooters. At least he was close to my age and not some skeev.
Anywho....we got back to my house and Les and I partied a little more and then I passed out. But for the record no PUKING occured. YEAH FOR ME!!!!
Next day; this is the best part of the story b/c it is so random.
So feeling a little under the weather...go to gas station to get some water and I see this vitamin water that says REVIVE on it. Well hell yeah that is what I need.
Drink it and then when Les and I get back she reads the back of the bottle.
I kid you not this is what it says:

"everyone loves going out, downing cocktails
and partying like a b-list celebrity. but, with
the glory comesthe pain-body aches,
cotton mouth and splitting headache the
next morning that would even bring the
might superman to his knees.

with that said, we loaded this product with
b vitamins and potassium to help your body
recover. so now you can party like it's 1999
and still wake up feeling like a million bucks....
$750K if you woke up on the bathroom floor."

I kid you not that is what it says on the back to the bottle. Les and I were cracking up. One of the many reasons why I love vitamin water.
So this is my b-day story, at least as much as I can remember.
Enjoy and next time you are hung over get some Vitamin Water!

Birthday Madness

2006-03-06T07:50:00.000-07:00

So be patient with me...I have bought a new camera and still need to install the software. I will have pictures of my birthday up, hopefully later today.
It was a blast, but I will tell you more when I get the pics up and the story really starts to unfold.

Lost in this chaotic world

2006-02-25T09:03:00.000-07:00

So I have felt a little like the world is crashing down on me. It has been a little overwhelming these past few days, ok it is more like a week. But there is SUNSHINE at the end of the tunnel. I have finally gotten, for the most part, all the sleep that I have needed...I am sure that I need more but I am functioning so that is a good thing.
Now that my brain is switched back on, and I am not running on auto-pilot; I feel like a real person again. This would be a good thing, at least I think.
So here I am, typing about how crappy my week has been. I don't really think that anyone wants to read this, so I am going to move on to more fun topics.

I am hoping today to buy some wings for my clubbin fun this coming thursday. You heard me right...I said wings. I am going all out and I can't wait. It has been a while since I went out and had more fun than I should. I am hoping that I will remember to take pics..b/c everyone has got to see this. I am not quite sure which club I will be attending....perhaps The Church, but I am currently on the search. Les is coming with me, of course!!! We always go clubbing together, just never seem to take any pics...hmmmmmmmm.
She is currrently in Seattle (lucky bitch) and I wish I was there too. Seattle is the place to be, esp. if you have a friend who is a DJ.
Anywho...these are my tentative plans for the week coming up. They might change, but the clubbin will be there!

In other news...I need everyones help. We need to convice Gabe (my man) to start his own myspace music site. He is a jazz musician and he is currently writing his own music. What better way then to have your own site where people can listen to your stuff. So everyone out there who knows about him and his music, please help me convice him that this is the right thing to do. Everyone should get to hear his beautiful playing. I am not just saying that b/c I am his gf either. You out there know who you are...I can even give some of you his email address and you can tell him directly that he should do this.
Thank you to all of you in advance.

Ah, the full moon-
casting on the straw floor mats
a pine's shadow

meigetsu ya
tatami no ue ni
matsu no kage

-Takarai Kikaku (1661-1707; a disciple of Basho)

What the HECK are you doing??

2006-02-15T17:11:00.000-07:00

So I have learned many things living in Colorado. For example; Colorado is a red state, Mtns are beautiful but they don't replace the ocean, there isn't always snow, and the drivers here are terrible. Really they are some of the worst drivers I have been around. I can't beleive there aren't more accidents here. I have driven on the east coast and they may be crazy but they know some of the simple rules of driving. For example; you need to speed up when getting on the highway. When the traffic is going 80 mph, 45 just ain't going to cut it. I mean COME ON!!!!!!!!
The best is the fact that no one here seems to understand what a 4 way stop is. It really isn't that hard people. I have been cut off more times at 4 way stop then on the highway.
I know, this seems like a stupid rant, but as a commuter this is a big part of my day. It is always an ordeal getting to and from work.
So please this is a plea to all those drivers out there...look over a driving manual and learn to drive. You will make lives easier all around.
One more thing....this is Colorado...learn to drive in snow, just b/c you drive a big ass truck doesn't mean that you can drive as fast as you can in the snow.

Thank you....I am done now.

Love to all

Is that snow!?

2006-02-14T08:32:00.000-07:00

So I hear that snow is headed my way...hmmm I should be happy but that means the commute from hell.
I love snow don't get me wrong, but only when I have a choice whether I go out in it or not. Now for living in Colorado, I sure haven't seen as much snow as I would expect.
In the midwest you get snow a lot, but obviously if you don't live in the mtns here in CO you get none.
Go figure! Now I know that weather people are usually wrong, so lets hope this is true. I know we need to moisture, but damnit let it rain.
Enough of my snow talk...it is boring but I just wanted to mention just a little something about it.
I hope that this day finds everyone well...I am in a strange state but that is not unusual for me.
Since I have little to say today I will leave you with a poem.

No shelter in site
to give my pony a rest
and brush off my sleeves-
in the fields around Sano Ford
on a snowy evening

-Fujiwara no Teika (1162-1241)

Goodness

2006-02-13T11:32:00.000-07:00

Ok so there are several reasons why I should not be allowed near a computer when I am drunk and the previous post is a good reason. Plus I tend to email people random messages when I am drunk, almost like drunk-dialing but at least don't wake up anyone.
Ok doke..so after the hiatus I am once again back.
Work just interfers too much, too often.
Well I hope to have some more pics up on my blog soon...this Friday is going to turn out the be a party so I will have some good ones soon.
Other than that...there is nothing interesting going on here, Gabe and I are going to have a nice day off (when he decides to get outta bed).
Wow...there just isn't anything interesting going on here in Fort Fun, that makes me sad.
My whirlwind life has come to a standstill, but that is ok. Japan is coming up next summer and that is going to be like a 2 month party.
I know a little bit more about what I need to do to get the ball rolling on this little trip. I am getting more and more excited...eventhough it isn't until next summer. But it just can't come soon enough.
Here is a shrine that I am planning on going to. This is a shrine in Nikko, there are several other shrines here. I am hoping to be able to walk to grounds around this area. This is not only a vaca to party in Tokyo at some clubs but also to do some soul-searching. I am hoping to find some answers to my life here in Japan. We shall see...there are many places that I want to go...I am hoping to come back with a better sense of myself and my surroundings. I am hoping that I will be able to do this every couple of years, or just move there...who knows.
Well I have been hanging at the coffee shop for about two hours...it is probably time for me to jet.
I wish everyone a great day!

Namaste

Coffee shop blues

2006-01-30T08:36:00.000-07:00

So as I sit here in my fav coffee shop...I realize what a crap hole my job can be sometimes.
So right off I need to apologize to Heather...I love you hon but you gotta understand...I know you do.
I am pondering the search for a new job. Now I am really shy about doing this, I know that I can be quite outgoing but only around people that I know really well.
I am feeling down trodden and just generally pissy.
I love working in a coffee shop and that is what I want to continue to do, I just can't do it in Greeley anymore...just can't.
So the quest begins..should I go corporate or independent. I am thinking I am done with the corporate b.s. that I have to go through. I want the freedom that you can get by working for an independent.
I just watching a girl have an interview here at this coffee shop and she got hired on the spot...that should have been me!!!!!!!!
Well...that's ok..I will find one, and it will be better than what I do now. No Fricking Unforms!
Ok I think that I have some issues, but I am slowly coming to terms with this.
Here is my problem and the reason why I haven't left my job yet; I love my co-workers and I don't want to put them in a hard place b/c no one gets hired after I leave. So what I need from my friends is advice...I know that I will getting a new job the next couple monthes to come but I just need a little encouragement.
The little voice in my head tells me to go for it...get a new job, but I would feel guilty leaving my co-workers. SO there is my biggest dilemma..so please hope Laura make a decision. No holds barred people...I want honest opinions.
Just don't tell me what a dumbass I am...I already know that.

Thanx in advance to all my friends.
Namaste

Back with a Vengence

2006-01-27T17:27:00.000-07:00

So hello to all my peeps out there. I am sorry that I have been away for so long. Had some serious down time, just work and trying to sleep.
I hope everyone is doing well at the end of this first month of 2006.
I was just in San Antonio visiting the rents...it was a nice time was way too short. Hope to go visit them again soon.
Nothing much to report here on the home front. We have been experiencing some strange weather here...warm one day then cold the next. Who knows...GLOBAL WARMING it's real!!!!
Anywho...I am about to convince Gabe that we should go bar hopping tonight..it has been a long time since I have been too drunk to know any better. Sounds like a plan to me.
It won't happen but one can dream right ;)
It is going to be time soon for the road trip...have been sitting on my can doing nothing for way too long.
So these are just some random thoughts that are running through my head. I just wanted to let everyone know that I was still out there.
Perhaps something of relevance will be posted on Saturday. (My day off!!!!)

Peace to all my friends...have fun for me.

Still Kickin It

2006-01-17T11:57:00.000-07:00

So sorry for the very long absence. I am still here, just very stressed and very busy. I will be leaving on vacation tomorrow for Texas, so hopefully I will be able to get caught up on everything.
I will updating everything so keep an eye out!!!
Love to all my friends and family.

Namaste

Tokyo-Summer 2007

2006-01-02T14:29:00.000-07:00

So my plan is to be there for the summer of 2007. I would like to spend a month or two there. I have looked into getting a furnished apartment in Shinjuku through the Sakura House. We shall see how that pans out. I am getting more excited about this, even though it is over a year away. This is a big thing for me, oh and if you didn't know...I am going by myself.
Now before I hear all this uproar about a women traveling by herself...I must tell you this. Tokyo is one of the safest cities in the world...I am not worried about myself, I am only worried about possibly getting lonely.
My friend Les has expressed an interest in going with me, but I haven't heard anything about it lately. I would love for her to come.
So Les if you are reading this, start saving then we can split the cost of the apartment ;) I will be getting my passport next week, that is the first step on this journey of self-discovery. I can let everyone know this now...and since my mom will be reading this, she needs to know as well. This trip is one of two things; a trip that I have been dreaming about, and a possible location to move to. I am prepared for the parental units to call me and object. But I didn't say that I was definately moving there, just scoping it out ;) So there are my reasons of going. That and man do I want to go to some Japanese Clubs!!!!!!!!!
Ok, well enough of my trip chit chat.
When I get more info on what's what I will let all y'all know.

I hope that everyone has a wonderful year...be good to yourselves.

Namaste

That SOB...he did this to me

2005-12-28T19:48:00.000-07:00

So if you haven't ever visited me at my home, you wouldn't know about my crazy neighbor. Now, don't get me wrong...I like to have a good time too but this women sometimes takes it a little too far. Let me give you a little background; about three monthes ago my neighbors sister got married. That's a fun event, everyone loves weddings (well for the most part)..well it was an excuse for her and her family to have a three day party, which involved a lot of drinking and a lot of hollerin. That's right hollerin...not yelling this is the redneck variant for shoutin and having a good time. So this sets the scene a little for you. She likes to have a good time.
Ok, so here it goes...I come home from work last night and I am home for about 15 minutes. Gabe comes downstairs and he tells me there is a ambulance, a cop car, and a fire truck right in front of our townhome. I was like.; "What the hell..something must me goin down." Well right when we were trying to figure out what was going on...our neighbor is outside her house screaming. And I mean screaming...I think she might have been drunk.
At least that is what it sounded like. She was screaming about "that sob, he did this to me..." over and over and over again.
Now here is the part that we can't figure out, why was there an ambulance, a cop car, and a fire truck there???
Obviously, the cop needed to be there, she was pretty upset over something. Now I don't know exactly what went on, but I know she really doesn't like this guy that she was shouting about. Gabe and I were a little weirded out so we decided to go out to eat, I just didn't want to be around all that negativity.
So that is my story...I know it isn't very elaborate, but man was it weird. I just hope that everything is ok with my neighbor, I mean I don't want her to be in any trouble or anything.
All I want is to live somewhere where there aren't any crazy people living near me, or with me.
I am done with the unstable females...just pull yourselves together. Please.
Anyway that is that and I am done.

Namaste

A Sewing I Shall Go

2005-12-26T12:32:00.000-07:00

SO for those of you who don't know...I received the best X-mas present in the world. I got a nice sewing machine. I know what you are thinking, you thought I was going to say diamond earrings or something like that...not that those wouldn't be nice.
No this was something that I have been wanting, and Gabe decided to be fabu and buy it for me! Lucky me!!
So bear with me, I will be posting photos (hopefully) of the clothes that I make, they will be plain to start out with, as it has been a long time since I have sewed. I plan on making my own designs at some point.
You think the way I dress is wacky now, just wait...now I have the ultimate freedom!
I have big plans for this little machine...Reupholstering the couch would be one of them. I will keep everyone up to date...I guess if you want to know about this stuff. This is a great gift for many reasons, the main one being this will help me save even more money for my tokyo trip. Oh yes, the jar has been growing bigger as of late.
Check my sidebar to see how much I am at now. I recieved a very cool present that will come in handy when I go overseas. Heather got me the Tokyo Bilingual Street Atlas...very cool!!!!!! I thank you much for this present, it will be put to good use. I have been slowly making my plans...I know it is a little ahead of time, but it is better to be prepared than not. I guess this also comes from my dad...I like to get things done early (sometimes absurdly early). Anyway, my next step is to get my passport...as that is something that I will definately need.

So as I learn my Japanese on audio, I will be sewing all my clothes..hmmm sounds like fun huh?! It is almost a new year, and my new year's resolution is to get the hell outta Dodge..if you catch my drift.

Namaste

HAPPY HOLIDAYS!!

2005-12-25T18:20:00.000-07:00

First off let me saY Happy Holidays to everyone. It is nice to be with friends and family on the happiest day of the year.
It is just Gabe and I this year, so that means we can be a little on the lazy side.
We started off with pancakes and bacon and mimosas for breakfast (well lunch really) then we opened our presents. Sounds like an eventful day doesn't it.
We napped and then ate dinner. That is about all that we are doing this x-mas. I had to work yesterday so I was recouping from that adventure...man it was crazy!!!
I hope that this post finds everyone well and everyone was able to relax. Let me give a shout out to my pal Cory, he has to work 2nite..he works in ICU, so lets be thinking of him as he puts in some major holidays hours.

ozora ni
amaneku ou
kumo no kokoro
kuni tsuchi uruu
am kudasu nari

The sky's expanse
is covered over everywhere
with clouds of concern-
blessing our nation, our soil,
with rain sent from above.

Kyogoku Tamekane (1254-1332)

Happy Yule to All

2005-12-22T08:01:00.000-07:00

So last night I had this fabulous feast fit for the Gods. We ate soooooooo much food.
Both Les and I passed out after we ate, that is some good food. Here is a list of what was eaten; Ambrosia, Wassail, Yule Cookies, Sirloin and Shallot Stew, crescent Rolls, Cheese and crackers, and of course there was a little achohol floating around.
This was my Solstice dinner...I rose early with the sunrise and thanked the Goddess for such beautiful day. I was able to get all of my stuff done early in the morning and then was cooking all day. It was very relaxing in the last stretch before the Big One.
I am happy that I was able to have this day off...it meant alot to me since I had been preparing for this feast since last month.
I hope that everyone was able to enjoy the day as well...whether you celebrate this tradition or not.

News from the Coffee Front

2005-12-17T09:33:00.000-07:00

Well my customers have been very nice to me this week. I have made quite a lot in tips the last week. Thank you very much, this is making my Tokyo Fund jar grow :) We are now up to $62.47. To everyone who has been contributing I thank you. I have started telling people, who ask, that this is what my tips are going to. A lot of my customers think that this is an awesome idea.
I also want to thank people for giving me good advice on what to do when I am there. Adam has told me to buy him something weird and Asian. Adam I think I can do that, I will definitely pick you up something.
I am going to start a little blip on my sidebar that will show how the fundage is going, if you are interested.
On another note, my holiday season has been much better the past couple of days...barring annoying co-workers, but better. If you have been reading you would know that I have been having a pretty terrible holiday season, things are looking up..I have gotten some of my spirit back.
I will having a big feast which I think is what is helping me get back into the spirit of things. Gabe and I are having a Solstice Feast this year, we are going to observe this old tradition instead of the commercialization of Christmas. I will be posting a whole blog on the Solstice in the next couple of days for those who are interested.
If anyone is in the area, please you are welcome in my home for this winter feast, I encourage all of my friends to come. To my friends that live elsewhere in the world, I will be thinking of all of you at this holiday season. I wish each and everyone of you could join me this year. Since the holiday is just around the corner, let us all remember the reason why we celebrate, please be kind to people around you. There is enough hatred and meaness around us, we need to cut through and be at peace with ourselves and maybe it will catch on.
To all my friends and anyone who is just passing through have a very peaceful Yule.

Namaste

My Happy Day Off

2005-12-15T20:10:00.000-07:00

So.....it all started with Leslie stopping by at 9am. I haven't had a day off since last thurday, so I was very ready for this one.
We sat around in our P.J.s watching Aeon Flux (oh yes that was a x-mas present to myself.)
Then we ran various errands, a little shopping (us shop, that is ridiculous)!!!
Once we got home we decided that we needed have a couple bloody mary's and that is where the day really started. It has been two later and I am feeling good about my holiday season now. That and the shopping helped me out. We have now been online window shopping for about an hour. Now doesn't that sound like fun?!
I have to say that it has been quite a relaxing day...I am just glad that I have Saturday off as well...I going into the home stretch next week.
Think of me at 11 pm when you are at home watching t.v. I will still be at work serving coffee, who needs coffee that late anyway? Oh by the way I need to give some props to my chica Heather who just got engaged this past weekend. CONGRATULATIONS!!!! We will be there for you when you get stressed out about all the little things. Much love to ya sista.
So that is my day in a nutshell, not very intersting but indeed relaxing. I love all of my friends and wish them happiness this holiday season.

May peace find you

It Has Begun!

2005-12-12T11:15:00.000-07:00

So I must say this to start out with, I know that I haven't been posting on here very reguarly lately, but I have been so tired and stressed when I get home from work all I wanna do is drink a beer.
So with that said here it goes....I am tired of all the people being demanding of me, this holiday season is by far the worst. Let me give you an example...I was at Target getting some clothes for work (I have to wear a certain colour) well I had this really great skirt and shirt outfit picked out and it was the only one left. I kid you not this happened to me. I turned for just a moment to look at something and this bitch took my skirt outta my cart and ran off!!!!!!!!!!!
THAT WAS FOR WORK!!!!!!!!
I hope that I meet her again, I want to tackle her. Merry Christmas to you..seriously lady are you going to tell whoever you give that to that you stole outta someone elses cart. That is some serious holiday cheer.
Whew...I feel a little better, I did report it to their manager, what good that will do I don't know, but let me tell you I was furious.
SO let me tell you, if anyone ever does that to me again...they had better watch out.
Christmas is about holiday cheer and spending time with family and being happy. Singing carols, eating food, stealing I guess it all goes hand in hand.

On a lighter note, there have been some really nice people at the holidays, they are the ones who always end up coming after the customer who just yelled at you for 5 mintues about something that is outta your control. I actually had a customer buy me a drink in our cafe b/c he felt bad for me. Those are the only people who should be allowed to shop during the holidays. I have worked in retail for six years and let me tell you this is the last x-mas I will ever work in a retail environment. I will never ever work in retail again. Like I said it has just been the worst holiday season ever.

Let the battle ensue over who gets the best presents, just let your family know what you did to get that present. I am sure their holiday cheer will deflate the moment you tell them you yelled at the register clerk (ruined that persons day perhaps) or that you pushed someone outta the way to get the adorable sweater for your daughter.
The war is on, are you ready?

It's Finally Mine!!!!!

2005-12-09T23:47:00.000-07:00

So I have been waiting until I had enough money, but it is finally mine. The Jack Kerouac Collection on Cd...oh yes, I purchased it today at work. What a thing of beauty. Now Heather was upset that I purchased said item, b/c I have a tendency to purchase things I really want during the holiday season. All my friends have such a hard time shopping for me...I like weird stuff. She did quickly forgive, (or she forgot..could be the margaritas)
Anywho..this is the coolest audio in the world..I will be listening to it religiously in my car for the next monthes.
This is a thing of beauty..I mean really, he speaks with such a lyrical voice...it is really like music.
I was way excited when I found out that I was able to order this product at work. Perhaps when I learn what I am doing a little better on here I can put an audio clip, but you know how some people just don't like audio clips, so we shall just have to see.
I don't have much else to say and besides it is late and this chica has to be up way too early in the morning, on a SATURDAY no less!
So goodnite to all and may the goddess watch over you.

Can I be your pepper?

2005-12-07T19:23:00.000-07:00

SO when people ask me; "What soda do you drink?" There is only one that comes to mind. DR. PEPPER!
I mean seriously, this is the best of the best. I became hooked on this because my dad always had it around. We used to go to Sam's Club and buy those 48 can cases. Man those were the days.
This is the only soda that I drink...I won't drink anything but the greatest soda on earth. Now you may be wondering, why the heck is she talking about stupid soda.
Partially because I have nothing else to talk about and the fact that I had a wonderful day and wanted to share my thoughts with others.
How does this all tie into D.P. well b/c of this drink I tend to have better days. I seriously would O.D. on this stuff if that were possible.
The best is Sonic (Oh yeah some of you out there know what I am talking about), they have the best little ice cubes which makes your drink taste that much better.
THANK YOU FOR TINY ICE CUBES!
Yes I have gone off the deep end, yes I am crazy, yes I am having a weird week. Any other questions come to mind? I think I might have hit them all.
Given the past week that I have had, it is no wonder that I sit here and type about a soda that not many people love.
Now this is the time to prove me wrong. Everyone I have asked where I work, with the exception of maybe 3 people, think that this is a horrible soda. What the heck is wrong with these people, well I could go into that further but it would require a completely different post.

So here's your chance to tell me how you feel about this wonderful soda, or tell which one you love and why?
This is something fun, amid all the chaos in this ensuing world I would like to embark on something a little fun and silly. Please let me know how you feel, or you can tell me what a dork I am. I can take it, just don't be mean...mean people suck.

Mmmmmm.....Dr. Pepper

Marco!.....Polo!

2005-12-06T19:23:00.000-07:00

Ok so I have been away for a couple days, and trust me it isn't because I went on some way wicked vacation. I wish, I have been at work for a lot this week. I worked some overtime, that means more money for me...That's good right??
Anyway...I am sorry that I have had such a lengthy absence...I miss all my friends and hope to get back into the groove of things.
The holidays, unfortunately, mean that I will be away for extended periods of time. Please don't lose hope...I am just trying to get myself back to normal...Not much down time during these frantic times.
So let me lay down the week for you...This has been an interesting one. I am more than happy to take a compliment from a customer when working, but it is when they get a little weird on me that I don't dig it anymore.
Seriously...I mean man come on...I am flattered if you dig me and think I am cool but when you are coming in everyday twice (sometimes 3 times) a day that is getting a little weird.
So that is the groundwork for my week...I dig it when people are into me...But when they start doing the above mentioned that is getting weird. I mean I am a barista..that isn't some fantastic job. I give you coffee your day goes better, that doesn't mean I am some angel sent from heaven just for you.
Sometimes people take their coffee a little too seriously..really they do.

On another note completely...I want to let everyone know that I am going to start a counter on my sidebar, this will show how far along I am on the Tokyo vacation. I will hopefully have this up by the end of the week. It is slow going, but I am sure that I will be able to pay for my ticket with just tips..how cool would that be.
I am also going to hopefully get some crazy stories about coffee serving up on this blog. If you have any stories..let me know...I will post them.

"Bartending is interesting, serving coffee is an experience."

So on this wintery day I leave all of you with a beautiful Japanese poem about winter.
Be safe and please may peace be with you.

hitotose o
nagametsukuseru
asatoide ni
usuyuki koru
sabishisa no hate

After a full year
of gazing out, one morning
I open my door-
to a thin snowfall, frozen-
the far edge of lonliness.

-Fujiwara no Teika (1162-1241)

Tokyo Here I Come

2005-11-30T16:00:00.000-07:00

Ok so if you are not aware..I must get to Tokyo. I have been wanting to go there for a long time. I think that it all started with going to Seoul when I was 13. This has been an obsession since then. I have finally decided that I am going no matter what!
Well that is easier said then done...very expensive. I don't just want to go there for a week, we are talking a couple of monthes or longer depends on how much I fall in love with this city.
Now I know what some of my friends are thinking..oh my god, look at the size of that city. Believe me I love the hustle and bustle, the constant flow of everything around me. I would feel so at home there. I don't know what the pull is for me, there are many things, I just know I fell in love with Asian culture when I was over there. I want to experience everything Tokyo has to offer. Especially the fact that they have a bumpin club scene.

So to start off my Send Laura To Tokyo fund..I will be saving all of my tips in a jar, it really adds up after a month. This money will only be used to pay for my trip and stay in Japan. So, if you are reading this and you know me or where I work, just know that your tips will help send me on my dream trip. That's just a friendly hint to all my customers.
So this is the plan...I came up with it on my day off...I will keep everyone updated on the status of saving for the trip and when I finally am able to get my ticket and all the steps along the way. Now I don't have that much saved yet, but just wait..It will all start to add up.
If anyone out there has any helpful hints, tips, travel advice, or just wants to wish me good luck please post. I would love to hear from all of you.

furisutenureba
yo koso karokere; harawazuba
yuki ni ya oremu
mado no take

If you cast it all away
the load will get much lighter.

Don't brush it off
and it will break in the snow-
bamboo by the window.

-Monk Tonna (1289-1372)

I am not lazy, just very tired

2005-11-30T00:09:00.000-07:00

So I am sorry all my peeps for not posting for a couple days. It has been a long couple ones so hopefully tomorrow I will be more alert and have my brain switched on.
Please be patient with me I swear there will be something witty, or at the least midly entertaining to come.
So now I lay me down to sleep...I am so very very tired, darn holidays.

Hope all my friends are doing good and enjoying their week..I love you all.

PEACE OUT

News Worthy?

2005-11-26T16:04:00.000-07:00

So I was having a hard time sleeping...go figure, insomnia sucks. Anyway, I was watching the news early this morning..and do you know what they were reporting about? The day after Thanksgiving shopping sales. This was on national news, not just local news. I was disgusted...there is nothing else going on at all, that they had to spend a good hour on shopping and the craziness. Not only that, they were reviewing what are going to be the best presents this holiday season.
Ok so Christmas is one of my fav holidays..I have always loved the season. But the commercial aspect of it has gotten outta control. I know this has been going on for a while now, but it just seems especially bad this year. I mean seriously, this is not something that should be shown on the news for an hour...there is a war going on, there are people dying from starvation, there are children being kidnapped. There is more going on then F#$%ing X-mas shopping.
Sorry about that folks, this is just a little disturbing to me. How can people be such huge consumers in this country??? What about the people who can't even put food on the table, what do they do for Christmas?
I could care less how long the wait was at Wal-Mart in Kansas City, or how cheap they were selling DVD players for. I have one...I don't need another one. I want to know what is going on with our soldiers who are stationed in various places around the world. How are they doing? They sure as hell aren't standing in line at Wal-Mart to buy a cheap DVD player. They are fighting, they are dying, they are trying their best to be all that they can be. They are protecting our freedom to go out and spend as much money as possible....wait that can't be right, or can it?
The Christmas season is supposed to be about caring and giving right? That doesn't mean who gives the best presents or who spends the most money on their kids,wifes, girlfriends, husbands, etc. We need to bring this season back to what it really means. Think about what Christmas means to you?
When was the last time you went and did something nice for someone at Christmas just because they were in need? When was the last time you gathered the whole family together and spent a nice evening talking (my god what is that...does it involve the t.v.?) or laughing, singing, dancing, eating, just plain having a good time.
Been a long time for me, I will be there the day before X-mas to help you find that last minute gift, or to have you yell at me b/c we don't have what you want.

Note: Christmas is the same day every year, plan ahead.

Well enough of this..I will be celebrating the holiday season with Gabe and friends, we are going to have a nice huge dinner on the 21st. I am going to be the anti-consumer this year. That doesn't mean that I am not going to buy presents for people I care about...but that does mean that I am not going to stand in line forever, or let people steal stuff outta my cart b/c it was the last tickle me elmo, or whatever the hot item for this year is.
I am going to remember my family, and wish them a wonderful season.
Next time you turn on the news, hopefully they will actually be reporting news and not what Wal-Mart has on sale.

Don't let the Door Hit Your Butt on the Way Out

2005-11-24T22:33:00.000-07:00

I would like to thank the person who ruined my fun by posting a crap comment on my blog..if you have a problem with something on my blog email. Oh and if you aren't smart enough to push the stop button on the video then I don't want you reading my blog. Do you understand...people like you ruin things for everyone else. At least have the guts to post something with your name on it...I don't appreciate someone who can't make a comment without hiding behind some faceless post.
I am not usually this combative, but I am tired of people saying that I should do something so that they will return to my blog. If you don't like it fine...I am trying to keep in contact with friends...I don't really mind that other people don't read it. If they are so compelled to they will...traffic is not that important to me. This is an online journal of my life, I am not here to impress people with anything...so in the meantime...I would like to make new friends but on my terms...I have been trying to fit into this mold of what people want for way too long.

I was under the impression that the whole blog thing was supposed to be a freedom of expression...when did it become something different. So in an effort to appease the masses I tried altering my video code and ended up fubaring it..so thanx now I don't even have it anymore.

Thank you everyone, and next time push the button

Oh My Goodness

2005-11-24T01:16:00.000-07:00

SO I had a meltdown...everything will be back up and running as soon as possible, thank goodness I have tomorrow off. Please be patient with me.

Now You Know my ABC's

2005-11-23T23:54:00.000-07:00

Ok Now that I got everything up and running again...I am going to put up something simple. I am done with complicated for this evening and it is time for bed for this little chica

I got this from a friend on myspace and since it is Turkey Day and I don't really want to use my brain here it is.

A- Age of my first kiss: 13

B- Band I am listening to right now: Not really a band: Armin Van Buuren

C- Crush: Viggo Mortensen (of course!)

D- Dad's name: Thomas or Tom

E- Easiest person to talk to: Leslie

F- Favorite ice cream: I can't eat dairy, so my fav sorbet is: Raspberry

G- Gummy bears or gummy worms: Worms...mmmm yummy

H- Hometown: Don't have one

I- Instruments: Flute and Oboe

J- Junior High: Northview Middle School

K- Kids: None

L- Longest car ride ever: Watertown, NY. to Yorktown, VA.

M- Moms name: Patricia but she goes by Patty (never Pat, never never call my mom Pat)

N- Nickname: Lolly

O-One wish: to be able to live in Tokyo

P- Phobia(s): sharks

Q- Quote: Music is the Universal Language

R- Reason to smile: I don't need a reason ;)

S- Song I sang last: "Beat It" gotta love old school MJ

T- Time I woke up today: 9:20

U- Unknown fact about me: I love reading about warfare

V- Vegetable: okra

W- Worst habit: Shopping, hmmmm...and I wonder where all my money goes

X- Xrays: many times

Y- Years since ive been to church: enough

Z- Zoo animal: zebra

I love driving

2005-11-23T20:46:00.000-07:00

So as y'all know from a previous post, I am a commuter. YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!
Well I had been stuck on the same Cd for a while now...but I have finally found a new one. This weeks selection is A State of Trance by Armin Van Buuren. I am currently listening to disc 2 which is my favourite of the two. This is is some great stuff...I am hoping to catch Armin next time he is around..hopefully soon. I like listening to this kinda music really loud in my car. So if you are ever driving down Highway 34 and you see a little silver Focus with the bass up real high...that's probably me. I have found that jammin out in my car is very theraputic. I don't feel so angry and rush hour traffic doesn't bother me that much. You see when everyone else is leaving work is when I am going to work, so I have to deal with this insane traffic. Anyway, if you want give this CD a chance. I guarantee you won't be disappointed, and if you do like let me know and I will tell you about his other cd's. Here is a link to his website if you would like to learn more about this awesome DJ Armin van Buuren: Home
Or if you would like to read a review on the above cd please go here Armin Van Buuren - State of Trance 2004

Peace Out and Keep on Dancin the Night Away

Ok Everyone

2005-11-23T09:53:00.000-07:00

I have added some blogs of note to my page, now before anyone tells me anything about the last one I added let me say this. I am Pro-Choice I put a link to this page b/c I think everyone should see what some of these people are saying. I think there are plenty of mis-guided people out there who really don't know anything of women's rights or the right to choose. Please take a look at this blog...yes it will make your blood boil but that is why it is so important to read it. We can't keep ourselves locked away from the extreme-rights opinions. I happened to come across this blog somewhere and thought that it would be a good one to keep tabs on.
There was a post on there, that I couldn't even write a comment to b/c it upset me so much...see what you are in for.
Let me know what you think...this is a great way to start a discussion group which I am willing to participate in or start if anyone is interested.

On a lighter note please everyone enjoy the day tomorrow...eat too much, drink too much, watch football, you know relax!

Everyone have a peaceful day

Jack Kerouac "Gatha"

2005-11-21T12:30:00.000-07:00

Sitting in the chair
In the morning ground
Is no sitting in no
chair in no morning ground

No returning, no
non-returning
No Karma, no
non-Karma

"Happiness, abiding
in peace, in seclusion
in the midst of the
forest"

is
abiding nowhere

Un-Happiness, abiding
in anxiety in society
in the midst of the
city

is
abiding nowhere

Not-two,
means,

no abider in his
abode

No realizer in his
realizing

"Develop a pure
lucid mind"

I like to read a poem by Kerouac every morning when I get up. This is one is a favourite of mine and I happen to read it quite often.
I hope that everyone out there enjoys it, please have a wonderful peace-filled day.

Here I Am!

2005-11-19T15:36:00.000-07:00

Ok so I have been MIA for a couple of days, but don't worry it is nothing pressing. Just a lot of work. BLAH!
I have finally got another day off, but don't have another one until Turkey Day! Can you believe that BS...oh well, the x-mas shoppers are out in full force. And might I say a whee bit early this year. DAMN THEM!

As you can see I am not a big fan of the typical holiday shopper, and as the big day gets closer, the more pissy they seem to get. Seriously, I have been behind the front lines at x-mas for way too long. This is going to be my last x-mas...I don't think that I can do the insanity anymore.
Ok doke, I do have other things that I can talk about. Really, this is just the beginning...you will be hearing more rants about this subject as it gets into full swing.
So on a lighter note, Gabe and I went to the UNC book sale (it was dollar box day). Yes for those of you who know, it is quite a feat to get Gabe up early...but I triumphed today, though he did sleep in the car all the way to Greeley.
I love book sales, you should seriously see my house there are books everywhere...from fiction to comic books...I could really open my own bookstore. I have actually thought about it from time to time.
Anywho this is turning into one of those blogs that you post, b/c you have nothing else to talk about. I will leave you all with a poem by my favourite author.

Buddha

I used to sit under trees and meditate
on the diamond bright silence of darkness
and the bright looke of diamonds in space
and space that was stiff with lights
and diamonds shot through, and silence

And when a dog barked I took it for soundwaves
and cars passing too, once I heard
a jet-plane which I thought was a mosquito
in my heart, and once I saw salmon walls
of pink and roses, moving and ululating
with the drapish

Once I forgave dogs, and pitited men, sat
in the rain countin Juju beads, raindrops
are ecstasy, ecstasy is raindrops-birds
sleep when the trees are out light
in the night, rabbits sleep too, and dogs

I had a path that I followed thru piney woods
and a phosphorescent white hound-dog named Bob
who led me the way when the clouds covered
the stars, and then communicated to me
the sleeping of a loving dog enamoured
of God

On Saturday mornings I was there, in the sun,
contemplating the blue-bright air, as eyes
of Lone Rangers penetrated the dust
of my canyon thoughts and Indians
and children and movie shows

Or Saturday Morning in China when all is so fair
crystal imaginings of pristine lakes, talk
with rocks, walk with a Chi-pack across
Mongolias and silent temple rocks in valleys
of boulder and tarn-washed clay,-shh-
sit and otay

And if men were dyin or sleepin in rooftops
beyond, or frogs craoked once or thrice
to indicate supreme mystical majesty, what's
the diff? and I saw blue sky no different
from dead cat-and love and marriage

No different than mud-that's blood-
and lighted clay too-illuminated intelligent
faces of angels everywhere, with Dostoevsky's
uneased praying in their X-brow faces,
twisted and great

And many a time the Buddha played a leaf
on me at midnight thinkin-time, to
remind me 'This Thinking Hass Stopped,'
which it had, because no thinking was there
but wasn't liquidly mysteriously brainly there

And finally I turned into a diamond stone
and sat rigid and golden, gold too-didn't dare
breathe, to break up the diamond that cant
even cut into butter anyway, how brittle
the diamond, how quick returned thought,-
Impossible to exist
Buddha say:
'All's possible'
-Jack Kerouac-"Pomes All Sizes"

Mmmmm....Ramen

2005-11-15T16:35:00.000-07:00

SO yes it's true, I am still a fan of Ramen Noodles. The one throwback to college I don't think I will ever get rid of. They are just right for work, which I indeed eat almost everyday. Ok, I can hear it now....There is MSG!!! Please have you looked at what McDonald's has in their food. I know that I am eating better than a lot of people. Granted I am getting alot of salt intake, but you know I don't really eat a whole lotta crap anymore. This is my one "crap" luxury. People tell me to eat soup, like Progresso for example. Ya know that stuff has MSG in it. Thanks but I will be eating the cheaper of the two.

Now I am not just speaking of the "Top Ramen" or "Maruchan" I am talking about just the noodles as well. You can make some fabulous creations with just the noodles. Like stir fry, yummy!!! Everyone loves stirfry right? Well, next time use ramen noodles instead of rice, it makes a yummy change.
So you may be asking why the hell is this chick talking about Ramen?? Well, I happened to be in a discussion about ramen noodles with my friend Cory. I thought that I would inform everyone about the wonderfullness (hmm...wonderfullness??) of the ramen noodle. Cory does agree, Ramen are quite tasty.

In the Ghetto

2005-11-12T13:12:00.000-07:00

So after a very long and frustrating day at work, I decided to join my friends Heather and Shelly. They were setting up shop at Scooters. Now let me set the scenario for you; Scooters is a bar that you have to walk down stairs to, (no that unfortuantely doesn't mean that it is an exclusive place) and the first thing you see when you walk in through the back are pool tables. Sounds cool, right?
Well, this place is cool, persay, but it is a little ghetto. But sometimes you need to go to a place that is a little ghetto. Now don't get me wrong, I do like going there just not when it's packed. There were so many guys there on the prowl it was ridiculous.
Well Heather and Shelly had started way before me, I had to work until 11 pm. They were pretty toasty when I got there, which is cool. I proceeded to follow in their footsteps.
Well since my debit card was left in my apron at work, I was a little SOL. But Heather said she would be my sugar-momma and off I went to get a drink.
Bloody-Mary #1; what a yummy drink, thank goodness to the person who thought this one up.

After this drink I let the evenings stress from work melt away (AHHHHH what a great feeling). But there was more along with said bloody mary, there also came a shot. Ahhh, yes a throwback to the college days. This shot was called a Washington Apple. It was yummy.
After my drinks I started thinking that I should head home. NO WAY! says my friends, so they convinced me to stay.
BudLight #1; ok so I am usually a little more picky, but this was cheap and it tasted pretty good. It served it's inteaded purpose.
This is when it started to get interesting, I had several skeevy old men ask me to dance, which I declined. EGHHHHHHHH!!! There was a DJ there spinning some hip hop and other various music. I kid you not in the course of 10 minutes, Shelly is hit on 4 times. Then she goes and dances and seriously, we need to keep an eye on this girl, b/c men are following her all over. So Heather goes to dance with Shelly, thinking maybe this will keep the skeevs away. Ok two girls dancing together just brings these guys outta the woodworks. Anyway, to sum this up, Guys like watching two girls dance together.
Bloody Mary #2; ok this one was way Spicy...so I drank about half of it. By this time there were some seriously creepy men there. So after Shelly and Heather danced for a bit, while I nursed my drink, we came to the idea that we really should leave.
So our sugar-momma (aka Heather) paid our tab, then we left.

Ok for my mom out there I have to say this: A Cab was taken, no driving for us Chicas.

Well, we get to Heathers and decided that we wanted to sing karaoke. While doing this I consumed Bud-Light #2 and #3. After singing for about 3 hours, we decided we were drunk hungry. So, Henrique was heading back from work and we have him pick up McDonalds breakfast. I did say drunk hungry, hence the McDonalds.
Well by this time it is 5 am and the night just kinda fizzles and dies.

So that is my evening, I know it was a long post, but there was a lot to tell.
Hope all me peeps out there had an awesome Friday night as well.

My Day Off

2005-11-10T22:17:00.000-07:00

This is my first day off in 5 days. That is too many days to work in a row. So today I decided that I should go somewhere instead of just sitting here doing nothing.
I went to the Poudre Canyon, it is about 15 miles from my house, but it might as well be a million. There is very, very little traffic there and the sound is so absolute that you could easily meditate there.
I love nature, so this is a favorite spot of mine for when the world gets a little too much for me. Thankfully everyone else just goes shopping, so I had my little area all to myself.

This is why I love living in Colorado, b/c there is something beautiful to go see just outside your doorstep. I would love to live here, but it does get quite cold here in the winter. If you know me well, you know I don't like cold weather at all.
Hmm....you may be asking why the heck do you live in Colorado? Well take a look at these pictures and they will answer your question.

I have taken everyone who has visited to this canyon. My parents loved it, especially my dad. Mostly because it was quiet, and he does enjoy his quiet. This canyon has been there for me many times, I have vented my anger at the world there and layed in the sun. I will always remember this area as a very special spot and it will always hold deep meaning in my heart.

When breeze blows by,
drops of water come across
the lotus leaves,
cooling me down at evening
along with the crickets' cries.

-Minamoto no Toshiyori (1055-1129)

I love the Beat Generation

2005-11-10T08:25:00.000-07:00

So I have just started reading this really great book by James Clellon Holmes called "Go." It is the first book published in the beat generation. This book chronicles what life was like before Kerouac, Ginsberg, and Neal Cassady became known for their writings. It is like a journal of events for the generation that would be called "Beat." Now I know that this isn't everyones cup of tea, I happen to love this style of writing. There are times when I have to reread a paragraph to get what is going on, but isn't life like that sometimes. Don't you have to step back and try to replay something in your mind in order for it to make sense. This style of writing seems more to true to life than many others that are out there. I just discovered the beat generation when I checked "Dharma Bums" out from the library. Now I had always known that they were there, just never took the time to read. Once I started I was instantly hooked. I feel a connection on a deeper level to some of the ideas that are brought forth in this book ("Go"). I had not heard of this one until one of my co-workers mentioned it to me. I would highly recommend this book to anyone.

"Now I want to write to you about the Beat Generation or simply the Beat Ones-your book. You did the honest thing, the big thing, the good thing."

-Jack Kerouac

If you are interested, definately give these books a shot. Don't think that because you read "On the Road" you have read it all. There are so many other books and authors from this generation out there. Go to any bookstore and you will find the many there to choose from.

There are many reasons to love the beat generation, here are a list of why I like the beat authors:

1. The gritty reality with which they all write.
2. The pure honesty that is portrayed in every book I have read
3. The ties to Buddhism and the Zen way
4. This one is personal, reminds me of my last days of college, with my friends;
Steph, Jeff, Sean, Kashi, Jason, there are more of you to name as well, but you
know who you are.
5. The language with which these books are written, pure magic (at least to me)
6. Jack Kerouac was a genius.

I have also put a couple links here, take a look see what this is all about.

The Beat Page
Jack Kerouac >> Official Web site

Skid Row Wine

I coulda done a lot worse than sit
in Skid Row drinking wine

To know that nothing matters after all
To know there's no real difference
between the rich and the poor
To know that eternity is neither drunk
nor sober, to know it young
and be a poet

Coulda gone into business and ranted
And believed that God was concerned

Instead I squatted in lonesome alleys
And nobody saw me, just my bottle
and what they saw of it was empty

And I did it in cornfields and graveyards

To know that the dead dont make noise
To know that the cornstalks talk (among
one another with raspy old arms)

Sittin in alleys diggin the neons
And watching cathedral custodians
Wring out their rags neath the church steps

Sitting and drinkin wine
And in railyards being divine

To be a millionaire and yet to prefer
Curlin up with a poorboy of tokay
In a warehouse door, facing long sunsets
On railroad fields of grass

To know that the sleepers in the river
are dreaming vain dreams, to squat
in the night and know it well

To be dark solitary eye-nerve watcher
of the world's whirling diamond.

-Jack Kerouac ("Pomes All Sizes")

How Dare You!

2005-11-09T11:36:00.000-07:00

I had a friend who was recently the victim of roofies. She is lucky that she was there with friends. Let me just say this, if you have to slip something in someone's drink so that you can have sex with them, YOU NEED HELP!
This is no laughing matter, nor is it something that you should be proud of. I don't like getting a phone call at 1 am b/c there is something wrong with my friend. However it is better than getting a phone call the next morning, and she not knowing where she is. If you have done this to a woman at a bar, IT IS RAPE. Let that mull in your mind for a moment, I bet you never though of it like that. Well let me guarantee you this, the woman sure does.
Ladies this is happening at bars around the nation. My advice, stick close to your friends, do not accept drinks handing to you by someone you don't know.
I know this is a unhappy subject to discuss, but it can't keep getting swept under the rug.
I was enraged when I found out, how dare a man do this to my friend! He better hope I never find out who he is, b/c I have a few choice words for him (and trust me that isn't all).
I would also like to mention, that said friend was kicked out of the bar for "stumbling like a drunk." Hmmm.....so in essence the bar could have put her in the arms of her attacker, b/c they though she was drunk.
It is a scary time, woman have to be on guard too much anymore. I know this for a fact I will not be going to college bars very often anymore.

Please to all my friends out there, be careful you are all to special to me and those around you.

May Peace be With You

2005-11-07T18:59:00.000-07:00

Today has been a challenging day for me. I have been on an emotional roller coaster all day. I finally now, this late into the evening, feel more at peace.
So to all those friends and loved ones who are feeling the weight bearing down on them; take a deep breath, relax, and may you find your inner harmony.

Much love to all my friends and family

Friday Night Lights

2005-11-04T19:06:00.000-07:00

Well....it's that time of the week again when we all sit down, kick back and get totally smashed with your friends. Now granted I don't do this often but sometimes you just gotta hang with the peeps.
Friday night we celebrated Henrique's Birthday, he is the ripe ole age of 25! A mere baby honestly. Henrique sings; "It's almost drinking, almost drinking time." Hmmmm that should give you hint of what kind of evening it will be.
At 7:10pm the drink-o-meter is at moderate, that will of course change later on in the evening. There is a keg, which means the party will be good. Later on Moose will be played, for those of you who don't know what this is I will be posting instructions to this game when I am more sober.
So the party is now in full swing, I keep hearing thoughts of drinking games, this chica will not be playing. Working, working at 8 am.
It's now 9:11pm an the drink-o-meter is slowly rising as Heather shuffles cards, hmmm I wonder what will be ensuing? We have two games going at once, Heather is playing Drunk Driver and the rest are going to be playing Moose.
So the evening progressed into and full on party. There were at least 20 people drinking and having a good times. I have some pictures so don't you worry.

Let me just say that I was really sad to leave, but work calls and I had to be there.
As you can see there was fun had by all.
I know some were feeling the hurt on Saturday, Tequila does not go well in large quantities. Shots were taken again and again, so you can imagine how my buds were feeling in the morning.
Next time, this chica will be able to get down and funky with the rest of the crew. I will ask for a day off in advance.

Am I smarter than a Coffee Bean?

2005-11-04T09:31:00.000-07:00

So I have to say this to get it off my chest. If you are going to come into a coffee shop and treat your barista like she is the stupidest person on the planet what kind of service do you expect. I mean seriously I am not stupid, perhaps I am smarter than some of my customers. Yes this is a rant, let me have my one rant. Please when you are coming to get coffee or your half decaf double tall skinny latte, at least give me the benefit of the doubt that I do know what you are talking about.
Ok I think I feel a little better. I think that I am very good at what I do, I can make a fantastic drink, so let me know that once in a while.

Ok now that I have made my statement I can let everyone know what is going on. I finally have a day off thank goodness, I am going to a birthday party tonight and will get to hang with some people that I don't get to hang with all that often so I am quite excited. I will get to see my friend who moved away to Nebraska. Well, I am sure that I will be posting later today as well.

Peace Out to all my friends!

Commuting what a joy!

2005-11-01T19:05:00.000-07:00

So since I am a commuter I tend to pick a certain cd to listen to for the week. This weeks selection is John Digweed's "Fabric 20" I love Digweed and pretty much every Cd he has ever done. I seem to have this uncanny luck that everytime he comes to Denver I find out about it a couple days later. There is something wrong with that. Anyway, if you are into this kind of music definately check him out. This is a techno cd, he usually does trance, which gets me into a good mood on my way to work. If you would like to read the review here you go

Fabric 20

Dressing Up at Work Means Fun

2005-11-01T10:14:00.000-07:00

As you can see we love Halloween at Borders. Here are some of the staff in some more fun costumes. If you are wondering I am the bar wench, yes that is right I am a wench!! I must give props to DeAnne who is in the very pretty purple, she hand sewed her costume in 2 days! You are hardcore DeAnne! Even though I had to work at least I got to have fun.

So the night still goes on

2005-10-28T23:12:00.000-06:00

Well I went to another bar and had more drinks, I am sure that this is helping my health in all kinds of ways. Leslie convinced me that I need a bloody mary, well one can't hurt right?
Anyway, so I am still having fun like in the old days.
Let me just say this HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEPHANIE I hope you made me proud!!!!!

Slowly on the Mend

2005-10-28T20:17:00.000-06:00

Well I am slowly on the mend, I have pretty much lost my voice but hey there are worse things.
To celebrate my voice loss I went and drank at the Rio with Heather. Now that is "hardcore" as Heather would say. Anyway, I wanted to let y'all know what is going on.
Seriously there are pictures coming soon. I have tomorrow off so hopefully I will get some up soon.
Peace Out to all my friends.

Back In Pog Form

2005-10-26T10:49:00.000-06:00

I have been out of commission for a couple of days. Being sick and having to work are no fun. It's all sleep and work and nothing else.
Never fear my next day off is Friday and I will be doing some work on the ole blog here.
Peace to all my friends

Another Day Another Dollar

2005-10-18T23:54:00.000-06:00

Well I have just gotten off of work and man was it a long day. I am a barista, for those of you who don't know what that is, it simply means that I serve coffee drinks. Pretty cool job title for something so simple.
Anyway, I am hopefully going to have photos up by the end of this week. I work more than I should so I am not going to really be able to get going until this weekend. Please be patient with me.

Let me give a shout out to Steph for she is the one who convinced me that I should start this.
You ROCK girl.

My first posting

2005-10-17T18:07:00.000-06:00

Ok so this is all new to me, I have several friends who told me I should start one so here it is.
I will putting pics up soon, so give me some time. ;)
I hope that I will be able to keep in contact with old friends easier and also maybe make some new friends.
So here it goes.

Music is the universal language